UNTRAVELLED SOLES

Tonight I spoke with a friend overseas on skype for 1 hour and 5 minutes - thank goodness for skype - and thank god for amazing friends!

Today was such a dark day. Well, it began yesterday and it continued into today and tonight, at my wit's end, I phoned a friend. I've been so dam stubborn about phoning friends to ask for help - wanting to convince myself, and everyone else around me that I'm ok. But so what about what everyone else around me thinks. Tonight I was tired and sad and at the end of my tether - and she, in the way that she does, put everything into perspective, and she made me laugh. And now I feel so much better and so much lighter - and instead of wallowing in my own self pity for the next 12 hours, or more, while my little girls are with my Mom, I'm going to do what I initially intended to do and thoroughly enjoy my time on my own. I'm going to read and sleep and sleep some more, and go for a run and cook a delicious meal so that when I am ready to bring the girls home we can sit down and eat together - even if J doesn't eat anything at all :-)

Love you my friend - and thank you xx